The NICU is a pretty quiet place. Most of the sounds that you hear are beeps and alarms from desats, bradys, IVs, ventilators, and isolettes. They each have a different tone and I have learned all of the alarm sounds. Every once in a while you will hear another sound...a baby crying. Joshua is intubated so he is unable to use his vocal chords, but I wonder - will I ever get to hear my baby cry? He did not come out of my womb crying. He had a very rough start - he came out grimacing Dr. Shepherd said, and it took the doctors a while to resuscitate and get his heart rate up.
I long for the day that I get to hear that beautiful crying sound. A sound I took for granted with my other kids. Lactation consultants think listening to a baby cry will help me with my pumping. NO WAY I scream in my head - I don't want to hear other babies cry! I only let-down to my baby crying! Mine has never cried, maybe never will...how does that help, it only makes me sad. I pray that one day I will get to hear that beautiful sound from Joshua.
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